This is my life right now. There are moments of pure happiness and joy. When I look at my kids and Elsie starts smiling at me or Hudson does something hilarious and I'm laughing. And of course there is my amazing husband - whose life is beyond choatic but still finds time to take me out spontaneously to a fancy smancy restaurant for dinner and then meet friends for drinks. Dusty, who can make me laugh and can love me through my ugliness. Cuz there are other moments - not such pretty moments where I am angry, or I'm depressed, or blah, or not interested in anyone but myself. And tonight I was thinking about turning 30. And about myself. I think I am supposed to "know who I am" by now. But as our family changed this year and we've had some major stones (or boulders) thrown at us, I realize I don't know myself at all.
I think this is okay. I think we all should be continuing to change anyway. Life continues to change, and we will continue to change with it. And with our ups and downs I realized I'm still finding myself. I'm trying to find myself in Jesus, and start each day with Him, but I don't always do this. But He starts each day with me.
All this to be said, I found a list I started a few years ago.
30 Things I want to do before 30
1) Get a tattoo
2)
Have a baby
3) Start the adoption process
4)
Read the Bible in a year
5)
Run a half marathon
6)
Serve in Africa as a nurse
7)
Hike a 14er in Colorado
8)
Visit Graham and Carrie in India
9)
Bake a pie from scratch
10)
Learn to sew
11)
Play the piano again – possibly take lessons
12)
Become critical care certified
13) Skydive
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